My Style Journal: I Changed My Name, Well Not Really But Somewhat

Plus size style inspiration by writer Maui Bigelow
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“Find your purpose or you’re wasting air” Ermias “Nipsey Hussle” Asghedom

No matter how much I act up, curse, and skip church, you have to know that I am very spiritual. I believe that the universe made room for us before our exit from mother’s womb and that our purpose was already attached to our names. I say quite often that God placed my name on the lips, in the head and on the hearts of individuals before me knowing my name. So yeah, there is a lot connected our names, and our names are a part of our magic, which is why I decided to change my name (well kind of).

I am a firm believer that our existence is predestined. As we come of age and into our own, we must do the work needed to live our dreams and purpose. I also believe that our success in life is embedded in our dreams and purpose, and our dreams and purpose are attached to our names. For years, I hated my name; it sounded weird, and no one pronounced it right, so I allowed people to call me Maya because it seemed cool(and later because of my love for Maya Angelou) and no one could butcher it the way They did Maui. Too bad I couldn’t do the same thing with my last name because I was over being called Bam Bam Bigelow also. (LOL) It wasn’t until I matured that I understood the unique beauty of my name and the importance of embracing it. I mean if God had a blessing with my name on it, would I receive it or would it be undeliverable since I wasn’t using my actual name?

One of my favorite saying is, “I’m aware that I’m rare” because I am and know that. As a girl Growing up in Iron City, Georgia, I was always different from the other kids around me; my interest were always different, my attitude was different and even when I attempted to fit in, it translated differently. I hated my name and the fact that i was different growing up. However, i now know that my rare name compliments everything about me. My loving nature, my nurturing instinct, my high energy, my drive, my passion and my wrath combined make me the rare lover and fighter I am. Which is why even in a world over populated where everyone has a name twin, I am the only Maui Bigelow (Google it).

Today, as I prepare to celebrate my 42nd trip around the sun, I am fully committed to living my dreams and operating in my purpose. This commitment begins with reclaiming my name by using it instead of my beloved moniker #PHATGirlFresh, that I started using seven years ago as a blogger. The change isn’t because I’m not passionate, happy, appreciative and true (PHAT); its because I’m P.H.A.T but Maui Bigelow first and foremost. That and I have moves to make, books to write and lives to impact and while I could have done those things as PHAT Girl Fresh, my purpose is attached to Maui and its time to transition.

By now most of you have noticed, I have changed my name on all my social media platforms (well I’m awaiting Facebook’s approval) and the website is now change is something i have wanted to do since 2016 when i purchased the domain and had a logo made. However, instead of being obedient and moving i allowed fear to paralyze me… until now!

So yeah, I identified with my purpose at the age of 10 years old. I learned how my dreams and purpose were connected and how to make them reality as a young adult. As a woman I learned the power attached to my name. Thank God and the universe for placing me on the frontline of so many teachable moments that have ushered me to greater. Oh and just in case you don’t believe being obedient grants you favor… After years of begging Instagram to verify my account, it happened exactly one week after I changed my name.

So, Here’s to another marvelous year around the sun for this little fat black girl named Maui Bigelow from Iron City, Georgia who dreamed big. Also, here’s to the woman that girl from Iron City became and her commitment to living her purpose, sharing her truth and being a servant to women and girls

My Style Journal

Blue Wrap Jumpsuit: Eloquii

Clear Block Heel: Amazon

Blue Crossbag: De Lovet

Silver Accessories: @GemzbyTB

Glasses: Zenni Optical

In the words of Shawn Carter AKA Jay-Z, “I’m clear about why I’m here, how about you? Are you living your dreams or according to your purpose? And remember, It’s not what you’re called that’s important, its what you answer to. Let’s talk sis!



  1. Latricia
    July 10, 2019 / 6:58 am

    I love it! Wishing you much success!

  2. July 18, 2019 / 8:14 pm

    Congratulations and Happy Birthday!